On to Plan Z

I'm slowly, but surely learning that when a door closes, it's closed.  I don't need to throw my body against it, pull on the doorknob, exhaust myself trying to get in...or out.  I need to accept it.  Accept that the door is closed.  It's time to move on.  It means that it was not the right path for me.  On to plan B or F or Z.  Not a big deal.  Just move on.  Go to the next open door.  And be grateful.  Grateful for another chance.  Grateful for a new journey.

I have my own asshole

I think I’m getting old.  My tolerance level for certain things is really diminishing.

Mean people – they actually make me a little angry.  I don’t understand why people have to be they way they are sometimes.  I mean I do understand…inferiority complex, low self esteem, jealousy…blah, blah, blah.  That can all make people do and say mean things by times…I suppose.  Guess I’m just to the point in my life now that we should be damn lucky.

Getting things that are not earned.  Many folks work very hard and just never seem to get ahead.  And then you get Miss. Betty-Talk- A-Lot who is under-qualified, un-deserving getting a shot at everything that’s going.  I don’t know if that happens because people don’t want to deal with those types of people or what the case may be but I see it more and more and it’s frankly, annoying.  Let the person who works hard, is dedicated, honest, loyal and qualified get a kick at the can for once.

Two-faced people who talk behind people’s back to get ahead.  I guess this would count as two things.  Two-faced is just a big no-no.  Doesn’t mean you have to be rude to someone you don’t like but for gawd’s sakes, don’t go and hang out with them like you’re sisters-from-another-mother and then trash them the minute they walk away.  That is so uncool!!  That person trusts you and trusts that you have their best interest in mind, hence the “friendship.”  When you talk about them behind their backs, especially to get ahead, lame-O!!

Being someone you’re not to…well…for whatever reason you do that.  Just be you.  If you have to switch up how you dress, how you speak, what you do…when you have to change the essence of you…why?  Why would you want  to be around people who make you feel you have to do that?

I guess I’m just one who calls it like I see it; with myself and with others.  I expect transparency.  I expect to be able to trust people.  I expect that people will be kind to one another unless it’s really warranted (i.e. I’ll never be nice to someone who abuses children or animals).  I expect people to get ahead based on merit, qualifications, hard work.  I expect when I tell you something, you damn well better keep it to yourself.  I expect you to expect the same of me and if I screw up, you better tell me.

I’m seeing things in people I don’t like.  Seems like I’m seeing that a lot more lately.  Maybe I’m just more critical than normal.  Likely just getting old.  I’m okay with that.  I’m also going to be okay with removing myself from situations where people are assholes.  I have my own asshole.  I don’t need anymore.