I'm not one for resolutions but it does help to set a goal and what better time to start then the first of a new year.
I think this year physical fitness has to rank up there pretty high. I am a healthy eater for the most part but the exercise thing...I make excuses on why I can't. I have to get back in the groove I was in before, like two years ago, gym every day or at least four times a week. So, that complimentary one month gym pass is going to serve to get my mojo going.
Mental fitness is going to take priority too. I read. I write. I do quite a bit to fire up the brain. The mental fitness I am speaking of...distancing myself from toxic people. People who lead a lifestyle that I just do not share, I have to put distance. People who are passive aggressive guilt-trippers. Have to step back. I need my emotional self to be 110%. I have a busy job. A busy family life. There is no room for the garbage. I say garbage because I have tried to "accept" these "traits" in others but I just can't anymore. I have a wonderful family and an amazing group of friends. They deserve my best and I can only give that to them if I'm not consumed with the bullshit. So bullshit free (reduced, that's more realistic) in 2012!!! And a slightly slimmer ass. 2012 is already looking good.
Love the one you're with!!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Christmas is coming...
...The goose is getting fat.
Please put a penny in the old man's hat.
If you haven't got a penny then a half pence will do
And if you haven't got a half pence then God bless you.
It is that time of year again. For some it can be very difficult. They are barely getting by. Find it hard to get something small for the ones they love. Feel guilty because of that. Haven't got food to put on the table. Miss someone they love.
This time of year, if you are blessed with abundance. Share it. Share your physical goods and your emotional ones. It just takes a moment to show someone you care.
Love the one you're with. XO
Please put a penny in the old man's hat.
If you haven't got a penny then a half pence will do
And if you haven't got a half pence then God bless you.
It is that time of year again. For some it can be very difficult. They are barely getting by. Find it hard to get something small for the ones they love. Feel guilty because of that. Haven't got food to put on the table. Miss someone they love.
This time of year, if you are blessed with abundance. Share it. Share your physical goods and your emotional ones. It just takes a moment to show someone you care.
Love the one you're with. XO
Sunday, November 27, 2011
I never met you...
...but I miss you.
I know that you were loved from the second I knew about you.
I know that you were a part of me that I never got to hold.
I can almost smell you and feel you if I close my eyes.
I remember the day you left like it was yesterday.
I know that everything happens as it should.
But it doesn't change the fact that I miss you.
More today than ever.
I know that you were loved from the second I knew about you.
I know that you were a part of me that I never got to hold.
I can almost smell you and feel you if I close my eyes.
I remember the day you left like it was yesterday.
I know that everything happens as it should.
But it doesn't change the fact that I miss you.
More today than ever.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Slowing down
I wish I could say that's what I'm doing, slowing down. It's not. As my girlie gets older, I get busier. As I take on new challenges, i.e. work, I get busier. As I get more involved with volunteering, I get busier.
But I am slowing down. Does that make sense?
I think I would call it prioritizing. Being selective about what I say yes to. Being selective about who is in my life. Eliminating mental clutter so that when I'm in the moment, I am truly in the moment. I have rules for myself now. No phone at times when the ones I love need and deserve 100% of my attention. This can be challenging because my work now requires me to sleep with my phone. Not literally but yup, it's on my bedside table at night. Same goes with my personal tether to the world. 9:30PM and unless it's something important, I don't answer it. No calls, no texts, no email, no Facebook, no Twitter. Makes me enjoy times like these more too. Times where everyone is taken care of. The tasks for the day are wrapped up and I can escape to a place where I can get my thoughts out there. Clear my head.
I watched and listened to my girlie laugh tonight.
Full out belly laugh.
Eyes squinting.
Head back.
Full of life.
That is what makes me slow down. That's what puts perspective on everything. I could have kissed her face off. And I did. When I snuggled in to put her to bed. When she asked me to hold her hand. My world stopped. I was in heaven on earth.
As always, love the one you're with.
But I am slowing down. Does that make sense?
I think I would call it prioritizing. Being selective about what I say yes to. Being selective about who is in my life. Eliminating mental clutter so that when I'm in the moment, I am truly in the moment. I have rules for myself now. No phone at times when the ones I love need and deserve 100% of my attention. This can be challenging because my work now requires me to sleep with my phone. Not literally but yup, it's on my bedside table at night. Same goes with my personal tether to the world. 9:30PM and unless it's something important, I don't answer it. No calls, no texts, no email, no Facebook, no Twitter. Makes me enjoy times like these more too. Times where everyone is taken care of. The tasks for the day are wrapped up and I can escape to a place where I can get my thoughts out there. Clear my head.
I watched and listened to my girlie laugh tonight.
Full out belly laugh.
Eyes squinting.
Head back.
Full of life.
That is what makes me slow down. That's what puts perspective on everything. I could have kissed her face off. And I did. When I snuggled in to put her to bed. When she asked me to hold her hand. My world stopped. I was in heaven on earth.
As always, love the one you're with.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Nature in us
eyes upon the future
not looking to the past
time streaming by
slipping between our fingers
cup your hands
capture the moments
let them flood over you
smile
feel their warmth
revel in the truth of the moment
don't fight it
let it wash over you
through you
clean
refreshed
renewal
like the leaves on the trees in fall
they served their purpose
they provided shade
they drank in the light
now they start to die
but no tears
rejoice in the idea of renewal
bare like the branches doesn't mean alone, naked, vulnerable
it means shedding the old, which served you well and preparing for the new
feel nature around us
in us
through us
Love
not looking to the past
time streaming by
slipping between our fingers
cup your hands
capture the moments
let them flood over you
smile
feel their warmth
revel in the truth of the moment
don't fight it
let it wash over you
through you
clean
refreshed
renewal
like the leaves on the trees in fall
they served their purpose
they provided shade
they drank in the light
now they start to die
but no tears
rejoice in the idea of renewal
bare like the branches doesn't mean alone, naked, vulnerable
it means shedding the old, which served you well and preparing for the new
feel nature around us
in us
through us
Love
Graduation from BMQ
Something ended this weekend but it was also the beginning. I graduated from my Basic Military Qualification. Made top three! I was in the running for Top Candidate...didn't get it but that was fine with me. I really didn't want to have to parade out in front of everyone. If you could see my drill, you'd know why. HAHA The TC award went to a very deserving person!!! Very proud of him!!
This is the beginning of a whole new career for me. A part-time career but a career just the same. Just because I am doing it part-time doesn't mean I just have part of my heart into it. I am so dedicated to this it's ridiculous. I believe in the people we have in our military. I believe in their talents and abilities to serve with honor, dignity, loyalty and courage. I'm so proud to put on my combats, big red and white flag on my shoulder. [big smile here]
And I've got a new start on some other things as well but that can be for a later post.
This is the beginning of a whole new career for me. A part-time career but a career just the same. Just because I am doing it part-time doesn't mean I just have part of my heart into it. I am so dedicated to this it's ridiculous. I believe in the people we have in our military. I believe in their talents and abilities to serve with honor, dignity, loyalty and courage. I'm so proud to put on my combats, big red and white flag on my shoulder. [big smile here]
And I've got a new start on some other things as well but that can be for a later post.
Encouragement
My thoughts after graduation BMQ.
I have to say that my thoughts are a bit all over the place today. Jumbled around in this little brain of mine. I'm thinking about graduation from my BMQ. The people I have met. Where I will go next with it...with all of it. I'm thinking about the folks overseas. The sacrifices they are making. The friends I have over there now and the friends that I have going. This makes me think of mortality. My own mortality to a degree. I'm thinking about how I'm getting closer to where I need to be but I'm not quite there yet. I understand that life is a never-ending journey. I'm okay with that. I'm just wondering when I will be "close enough" to having it together.
I'm thinking about the text I got this morning from my buddy Mitchell. "ADOPT the new attitude of the military career as being something you WANT for yourself and for your life. DO NOT let anyone get in your way! You CAN do it and you will do it. The military does not give compliments. Have confidence in yourself to know you KICK ass!"
She sent this because yesterday we had our review. Mine was good but there was no mention of all the extra stuff I do. I extra help I ask for so that I can be better. The leadership role I try to take. I was disappointed. I was frustrated with myself and with the system. I asked myself why I was doing seven days a week for the past seven weeks. I was questioning my abilities. Right up until this morning, I was questioning if I was good enough. Capable. Able. Basic Military Qualification is difficult but not as hard as Solider Qualifying. I have been challenged mentally and physically with my BMQ but mostly because it's something new. It's a new philosophy and a new way of life. SQ will be very challenging for a variety of reasons. Yesterday I was questioning if I could do it. If I wanted to continue. Mitchell's text encouraged me and it makes me think...I CAN do this and I WILL.
I have to say that my thoughts are a bit all over the place today. Jumbled around in this little brain of mine. I'm thinking about graduation from my BMQ. The people I have met. Where I will go next with it...with all of it. I'm thinking about the folks overseas. The sacrifices they are making. The friends I have over there now and the friends that I have going. This makes me think of mortality. My own mortality to a degree. I'm thinking about how I'm getting closer to where I need to be but I'm not quite there yet. I understand that life is a never-ending journey. I'm okay with that. I'm just wondering when I will be "close enough" to having it together.
I'm thinking about the text I got this morning from my buddy Mitchell. "ADOPT the new attitude of the military career as being something you WANT for yourself and for your life. DO NOT let anyone get in your way! You CAN do it and you will do it. The military does not give compliments. Have confidence in yourself to know you KICK ass!"
She sent this because yesterday we had our review. Mine was good but there was no mention of all the extra stuff I do. I extra help I ask for so that I can be better. The leadership role I try to take. I was disappointed. I was frustrated with myself and with the system. I asked myself why I was doing seven days a week for the past seven weeks. I was questioning my abilities. Right up until this morning, I was questioning if I was good enough. Capable. Able. Basic Military Qualification is difficult but not as hard as Solider Qualifying. I have been challenged mentally and physically with my BMQ but mostly because it's something new. It's a new philosophy and a new way of life. SQ will be very challenging for a variety of reasons. Yesterday I was questioning if I could do it. If I wanted to continue. Mitchell's text encouraged me and it makes me think...I CAN do this and I WILL.
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