Cumulative disappointment

I've just had a whirl of things going on and I haven't been writing like I should. I say I should because it helps me to keep my mind clear.

What popped in my brain today as I was driving? Cumulative disappointment. Small things that on their own are really no big deal but as a whole they just make you say, "ah shit", shake your head and sulk away.

People.

They are the source of my cumulative disappointment today.

Reliability & Authenticity

I've got two things on my mind today...actually have been on my mind for a while but today seems like the day to get it out there.

Icing on the cake (7)

Another investment. Pretty pictures. That's right. Taken three days after my 39th birthday. I'm going to look at these and smile when I'm eighty. hahaha

I'm so freakin' excited

It usually takes a bit to excite me now that I'm in my zen state. hahaha But I've found something.

Outside matching the inside (6)

Reiki level one and level two. Insights. Meditation. Cards. Reading. Stories. Enlightenment. Prayer. Closer connection to earth (yes, the grass beneath my feet and the sky above me connection). Eating better. Cutting out wheat (I'm a "wheat-avoider" I guess). Gratitude. Appreciation. LOVE.

Kind of brings me to now... (5)

And here I sit today.

It's been almost four years...

Single lady!! (4)

That I was! For over two years. Best thing I ever did. I STRONGLY recommend to the single gals out there who are fretting about finding their partner....heck with that!! Find yourself first. Date all over the place (I said date, a girl still needs to respect herself). Travel. Have the time of your life. Meet all kinds of people. Go way outside the box. Date guys you never thought you would ever consider. Guys, do the same...well, date girls...or hell, date guys...whatever floats your boat. But have FUN.

And here we go (3)

I got my poo together. Imagine!!!! Got my own place (after selling my nice car and my snowmobile). Gone were any sort of luxuries. But that's okay because I was in a nice apartment below the sweetest old couple. I started seeing a life coach and a really nice guy. Things were looking up.

Light came after the dark but not for long (2)

Things worked their way out after my friend passed. Life went on as per usual. He was never forgotten but well, the day-to-day had to happen. Fast forward seven or so years. Committed relationship. Big mistake. There were expectations. It would get better. Right?... Things would work out.