Evolution of sorts

Boy, it's been a while since I graced my fans with an appearance.  Soooooo kidding.  Seriously, it has been a while since I felt inclined to put fingers to the computer keyboard.  Guess I haven't felt overly inspired.  I've felt content in my place in the world.  And I still do, however, my place in the world has shifted slightly over the past two months.  Where I'm usually a mom, partner, daughter, friend, co-worker; I have been a course mate, roommate, maybe a friend.  I have been living with people who were once strangers.  We quickly become family, with all the good and bad aspects.

Having a degree in psychology and sociology always makes these situations interesting. :)  Sometimes it's funny interesting.  Sometimes it's angry interesting.  Sometimes it's frustrating interesting.  Sometimes it's upsetting interesting.  The common denominator is its always interesting.  For me, it's interesting how I react to all the scenarios; all the challenges, the dynamics.  I am always game to learn about myself.  I will forever be a work in progress.

We are all a work in progress.  Sometimes people forget that.  They go looking for perfection in themselves and in others.  There is no perfection.  There never will be.  You will be sorely disappointed if you go looking for it in yourself and you certainly shouldn’t rely on finding it in others.  What others will do is act as a conduit to discovery.  I know that sounds a bit gay but it’s the truth.  I have no doubt in my mind; every person that has come into my life has been to teach me something about myself.  To teach me what I want and what I need out of life and more importantly to teach me what I don’t want or need.

It's hard to be on the receiving end of someone's discovery session.  But remember as they are evolving and working through this crazy little thing called life, so are you.  There is never a bad experience.  There are unfortunate situations that don't always end the way we want them to but they're not bad.  They are only bad if we choose to take nothing from them.  I used to choose to take the latter root.  Always thinking I was dealt the shitty hand then I had a revolution one day.  Actually, I had a really great person give me a wake-up call and I consciously chose to see things differently.  I felt and still feel so strongly about it, I got the word "Forgive" tattooed on my wrist.  I look at that every day and think of the shit I have been through.  Then I think of those I have forgiven and those who have forgiven me and I am grateful.  Without them I would never feel as blessed as I do.  I would never have evolved into the person I am today.

There are lessons in everything.  Always.

Love the one you're with.